The week of October 17th, as a dating machine, I wanted to go to the Monster Mash costume dance at the Institute, so I called up this guy that my friend wanted to line me up with (Jason Sundberg). We had met before and hung out a couple of times, and I had met all of his friends. They were pretty cool and fun to be with. So, he said that he was going to the Monster Mash and that I should go. Later, I called him back and asked him if he could get one of his friends (like Matt McDaniel) to tak...

I broke up with Matt on Monday. It was so hard to do. I love him so much, and don't ever want to lose him, but I just know that it's not right for now! He cried on my shoulder, and we hugged for about an hour and he kept asking me why, but I have no better reason to tell him than what I mentioned previously. I'm glad he did cry, though, because it shows me that he cares as much as I do. He's got so many great things about him, and I just hope that things work out. He wants to be friends...

Yesterday T* was at work, and so when he came up to the third floor (I couldn't even see his face, he was talking to someone else in a row of books), I got really excited just to see him. Then Kristen looked at me and told me that I had the funniest look on my face. She kept trying to figure it out, going on and on about how I looked pleased or something. I tried to get rid of it, but I couldn't! Every time I looked at her I thought about it again, and then I would smile as big as . . . ...

I'm just very glad to be able to hang out with a lot of guys, although sometimes I think it would be really nice if one of them showed interest back and I actually still felt interested. Usually I flirt until they show interest back, and then, for some reason, I lose interest. Tanya said that I just like the chase. I told Kendra about it, and we came up with an analogy. I like fishing. I like standing there with my hook seeking a fish, but I don't like to gut the fish. I just let it go. ...

The first day I was back at work at the Family History Library, I was talking to the secretary, and she said that Swiss Days was "this weekend". I said I was going to go, and Adam was standing there. He had hinted about us hanging out before, but I had never had time. Adam asked who I was going with. "You," I said. Ha. So we made plans to go. I had to leave work a bit early to get to his house so we could go up there. It took me a bit longer than I thought to find his house, and at on...